I love this saying. I’ve been looking at what I can do well for the last few days. I’ve also been looking at where I have served and where I can serve. And I think I may have been restricting where I serve by what I want to do. In my heart, I wanted to lead people in worship, but that’s because the people I admire most at our church do that. I wanted to be like them. But, I’m not like them.
I have a heart for worship but my abilities aren’t in the realm of musical instruments, or lead vocals. I wish they were, but wishing won’t make me a better singer, or a guitar player. But, I am technically savvy so now I’m experimenting on the sound board. It’s kinda disorganized right now, and I hope I can bring some order to it. I’ve also been holding myself back from drama because of my work schedule. It’s hard to rehearse when I’d have to take off work to do it. So, I just send my ideas to someone else and let them run with them, or not.
The other handicap I’ve placed upon myself is how much time I have to commit to my family. I would serve more if I saw my family more. I like working sound because I get to serve with my wife who works media. I’m reserved about giving up more of my time to serve with others when I only get to see my kids on Saturday and Sunday. So it’s possible that I could serve better elsewhere, but I don’t want to take any time away from them. I’ve already seen how my writing takes me away from them. (I need peace and quiet to write) How can I possible offer to serve in another ministry that would take up more of my time?
This chapter left me with mixed emotions. I am serving, but I don’t know if I’m serving as best as I can. I like what I’m doing, it’s interesting; but I’d love to brain storm dramas with Hol and Chels, or spend some time with some of the troubled youth, but I’ve got my own family to take care of. They need to know I love them as much as I love serving God’s people in our church. The need to feel my love for them, not just see my love for God in the things I do.
The Bible verse comes from Paul writing to encourage Timothy.
Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.How can I make the best use of what God has given me? Honestly, I don’t know. I’ve been looking for cues from other people I respect at the church. Where they have asked me to serve, I have served, when I have seen a need, I’ve tried to fill it.
2 Tim 2:15
Remember: God deserves my best.
I think you are doing it. Could you do more... maybe? But maybe you are not meant to do more right now, while the family is young. But you are reflecting, changing, making positive choices, letting go of past hurts, building bridges, repairing some, and tearing down some you no longer need.
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